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I just got some major motivation to keep on losing. I uploaded all the pictures we've taken recently and my fiance was apparently taking a lot of candids of me at his birthday party. I look horrible! I have to admit part of it is my outfit, which I thought looked really cute but made me look bigger. And the other part is I'm just fat, fat, fat! Before I was always overweight. Always. But it's different when you've put on a lot of weight in a short amount of time (50 lbs. in my case) and you don't feel like you look different, but damn, that's a lot of weight.
Now I'm anxious to see his sister's wedding pics, from the week before his birthday. I was a bride's maid and everyone was saying I looked stunning. But all I see is FAT in pictures. In the mirror I see pretty, but not in pictures. I'm weird. I don't want to look at my wedding pictures and see fat.
I went to my brother's wedding a month ago and my dad, whom I hadn't seen in 7 years, kept saying how lovely I was. He was even saying this to my brothers, so I knew it wasn't just lip service, but he also said to my brother that I was heavy.
Blah, yes it is mostly about health, but I'm also tired of hating the way I look. If only pictures never had to be taken. I look sickly.
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122,9 kg
Bisher verloren: 6,8 kg.
Still to go: 18,6 kg.
Diät befolgt: 100%.
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