cerobit's Notizen, 15 Apr 13

"I have sailed this impossible ocean
I have sailed this crazy sea
I can never be what you want,
whatever you want me to be"

Johnny Clegg and Savuka

I've always admired this singer and his 'mates, both for political boldness during apartheid and for relationship themed lyrics.

Can one ever deliver all that is desired by one's partner? Should? When does self end and placating begin?

I'm in a holding pattern now, dependent on others for transportation and am unable to do much of what gave me identity, self, worth.

oh well, if things hold I will be driving by June. maybe working at some point too. And fishing the Fla. backwaters w/ my boy.

ION, Completed PT/OT today w/ a tech whose name begins w/ "A" can't rember rest. She is good. manipulated shoulder vigorously and did lunges + fine motor LH drills.

Didn't puke either which is a plus, but am worn out. expected after week off due to chemo.

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