Gary...I struggle daily with my mental health and my physical health, I swear by Insight Timer app free from Google Play, I recommend it to everyone and I use it every single morning and sometimes at night. It has meditation, self hypnosis, neuroscience, relaxing music, sleep sounds, confidence &focus affirmations....all sorts! I use it to get my head in the right space to face the rest of the day, give it a try, nothing to lose right?! And well done for your honest post, that takes courage& strength...I'm sure youl start getting back to feeling yourself in no time but for now here's a great big hug and some positive vibes being sent ur way 🤗🤗🙏