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HAPPY 4TH OF JULY EVERYONE!!:)
I'm pretty disgusted with myself at the moment. I have been eating a lot the past couple of days. It's like I can't control my eating sometimes.:( It makes me feel out-of-control, stressed out, fat. I know I'm big, but sometimes I don't FEEL big if that makes sense. Other days, like today...I feel huge. The scale goes up, goes down, goes up, down etc. A couple of years ago I got down into the 290's & said I would never be over 300 lbs again...yet here I am. I don't want to get any bigger. I don't like how I look, how I feel. I just need to get control of the eating thing. Can you believe that I'm a little jealous of people with anorexia?? How messed up is THAT?? At least they seem to have control & willpower. I have neither.
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