GilmoreGirl's Notizen, 19 Mrz 10

Last night, I had what I call a "mini-binge" with sandwich thins and nutella. The crazy thing is that it was planned (not in my meal plan, but by me thinking about it for a couple of hours beforehand), and I had many chances to avoid it, but still let it happen. It was overeating that I had complete control over, so I guess that does take it out of the binge category.

However, it was entirely, 100% emotional eating. I wasn't hungry. I wanted to eat something soft and sweet that would distract me from my feelings, even if only for a moment.

It's moments like that that really make me miss smoking. Yes, I'll admit it: I'm a smoker at heart. I quit smoking in July and it's only recently gotten easy to deal with. But the last couple of days I've yearned for the ability to go outside and light up, just to get away for a few.

I guess that I could still go outside, and go for a walk or just sit there sipping a soda or something. But none of those options are quite as satisfying as a cigarette. The only real solution here is to face my life's problems head-on instead of trying to distract myself and/or run away...

I'm already thinking of ways to modify today's meal plan to suit my needs. I think that I'm almost ready to give up on meal plans again and start really listening to my hunger signals.

Basically, I have been eating the same kind of things every day. I am only eating foods that I really love, like poptarts, lean cuisine pizzas, grilled chicken in a salad, redvines, popcorn, etc. I've done this for four weeks now and I think that I have a pretty good handle on how much food I should be eating every day to add up to the fat and calories that I need to lose weight.

I will try it one more week with the meal plan and then reevaluate. I know that planning has been key to my losses the last month, but I never planned to plan forever, if that makes sense. Only time will tell.

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1481 kcal

Fett: 28,54g | Eiw: 45,70g | Kohlh: 272,75g.   Frühstück: Pop Tarts Frosted Chocolate Fudge. Mittagessen: grapes, carrots, pizza rolls. Abendessen: lean cuisine pizza, popcorn, kraft free dressing, cucumber, romaine lettuce, tomato. Snacks/Sonstiges: red vines, Pop Tarts Frosted Chocolate Fudge. mehr...