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7:15pm (PST) - I head home from vacation tomorrow and honestly, I'm looking forward to being home again and have one day off until I'm back in the office. I enjoy my daily routine so I'm happy to return to it. I'm actually feeling a little down right now since I visited my parents today. My dad is doing great but my mom is in her seasonal depressive state. I've tried so many times to help her but it's difficult...she won't give in to get help. And, she won't tell me when her doctor appointments are so I can go with her to talk to her doctor. I'm finding in my sadness that I want to snack on potato chips or have a stiff drink but I know that won't make the emotions go away. Instead, I'm doing this journal entry. I am hungry and dinner should be ready in the next half hour but I figured if I key in my thoughts, this will help get my feelings out and I can still get something out of my meal. In all, I know I can't control my mom but I can't stop worrying. I'll keep doing what I can to help and try to get the rest of my family more involved but it seems that we all feel defeated. And, it doesn't help that I live in a different state from my parents. Maybe I can work with my dad to find some solutions so for now, I think hope and prayer will get me find help for my mom.
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