lovingmomma's Notizen, 28 Mai 15

I am 15 weeks pregnant with baby number 5. We are very excited, the kids cant wait to have a new baby in the house ,and neither can I. I feel my mindset on food changing. Ive been eating what I want, when Im hungry and stopping when Im full. Most of the time I desire healthy food anyways. This feeling is so freeing. I feel like food is losing control over me, and I have gained far less so far than with any other pregnancy. 4 lbs so far, which is just perfect. It was during my last pregnancy that I realized I had a huge problem, as soon as I allowed carbs back in my diet, because its the only thing that I could stomach the first trimester, I lost control. Ive never felt so out of control with eating in my life. I felt like I just couldnt stop eating. I had done gret on a diet, but my relationship with food was still the same. I remember gaining 7 pounds a week more than once. I kept making the excuse that it was just water weight, but I knew I was out of control. I never want to be back in that place again.
After that pregnancy I realized I didnt need a new diet but a changed mind. Ive gone through periods of feeling free from food controlling me, and even losing weight at the same time, and then going back to being its slave again. I am going through a period of freedom again, and the feeling is amaizing. I dont eat till Im so full I feel sick, if I want a bowl of ice cream and i am hungry i allow mhself to have it, if im not hungry i wait till later and if i still want it I eat it then, and I dont eat the whole carton. ;). Im not sure if i will ever get down to my goal weight without dieting, I hope so, but Ive realized that this freedom, eating without guilt, stopping when im not hungry, eating when i am is worth so much more than the weight loss. And my gain this pregnancy is the least its ever been. If the gain continues at the rate it has, I will end at a very good weight. Maybe even lower then when I started out 25 lbs less.

80,3 kg Bisher verloren: 24,5 kg.    Still to go: 5,4 kg.    Diät befolgt: Recht gut.