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I haven't done so well the past few months. I've been hospitalized for my asthma three times, lost my job (have since started a new one...albeit temporary), lost my apartment (now living with my best friend), have been put on insulin, and just all around eating too much and too often and too craptastically. So I've gained weight. Oh yay.
However, I've started walking on the treadmill again. But only because I feel like I have to do something. And if that's my motivation, then I guess that's my motivation. At least it's something.
So here I am recommitting myself. I'm sure I'll have to do it again. But for now here it goes. I'm going to eat my three meals a day, and two snacks and one dessert. I'm going to walk as often as possible on the treadmill. I'm going to take a multivitamin (which I've already started). I'm going to take my insulin without bitching. I'm going to take all my meds without bitching. I'm going to keep my doctor appointments. And I'm going to keep my eating disorder under control.
Tonight I ate way too much. So I'm not even going to document what I've eaten today. But I didn't purge...wanted to but watched True Blood instead.
Tomorrow I WILL get up at 6am and walk. I don't have a choice...it's something I must do. No matter how slow I go, I'm doing laps around those that are sitting on the couch. And I don't want to be in the couch category anymore. I need to get healthy. 265.6lbs is not healthy. That's severely obese. I'm only 5'3"...and my tummy sticks out like I'm pregnant with twins. I need to fix that. And I will. I just gotta walk and eat healthier. I can do this. I've done it before. I can do it again. I've just gotta recommit myself.
So this is me saying I'm back. And now I have to fight to stay here. It's too easy to just keep gaining weight...and doing nothing. I can't do the easy thing anymore.
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120,5 kg
Bisher verloren: 0 kg.
Still to go: 38,8 kg.
Diät befolgt: Schlecht.
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Zunahme von 0,1 kg pro Woche
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