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Ok, so I have been trying hard to get back to eating right (mindfully, thinking and carefully choosing what I shove in my mouth). I was really bummed by my weight gain (and after that I am pretty sure I actually put on another pound or two as well). I've been consciously trying to add more veg (even though they are all frozen, but I am guessing frozen's better than none at all, right?) and drinking more water, and working towards zero dairy and sweeteners (I had managed that a few months ago but when I started having another depressive episode I threw it all to the wind, even though I know I am lactose intolerant). So I also decided that I needed to go back to cutting out the breads again (they are a trigger food, I can eat a whole loaf in a sitting without even thinking about anything except how good it tastes).
I did have a back-slide last night (I blame my insomnia which makes it so easy to feel "hungry" when I am not, not really). At our local dollar store (which is an idie shop so they always have random stuff) they carry some food. You never know what you will find there, but when you are on a really tight budget, you gotta look because an empty cupboard is not nice). Anyway, last week they had some frozen stuff--including some pints of ben & jerry's non dairy ice cream, some sorbet, and other ice cream stuff. This only happens once ina blue moon (and I can't usually afford the stuff) so I bought 6 pints (2 pints of b&J and 2 pints of lactaid ice cream, and 1 thing of sorbet and one thing of some other brand ice cream which had 330 calories in the whole pint.
Anyway, last night/ this morning at 2am I ate half a pint of ben and jerry's and 1/4 of a thing of raspberry sorbet. I feel bad about it, felt bad while I was doing it, but it all tasted good (surprisingly, for me, the sorbet tasted nicest and I deliberately put it back so I could make it last).
Wish I could do that with more food. *sigh*
Anyway, the weather is super cold this week (we're in the single digits at night with negative windchill factors, and during the day it hasn't cone above 18. Friday is supposed to be about 30 and not so windy so I am planning
to go then and get weighed. If nothing else it will tell me where I am at.
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