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So if I was a betting woman I'd say that I have lost some weight over the last two weeks... I'll know for sure on Monday when I go to the doctor. I'm pretty sure that that is going to be the only good thing to come out of that appointment. The reason I think I have lost weight is that the bones in my hands and wrists are more noticeable than usual.
My doctor told me when I saw her last month that because my depression had gotten worse that she no longer wanted to have the responsibility of managing my psych meds and that I would have to find a psychiatrist to take me on as a client. Not the best news I'd ever gotten, you know? The doctor said that they couldn't give me a referral to one due to some sort of red tape. Again, not really the best news. I found a community program that I could apply for a place with (have to go through a four week long intake process before seeing a psychiatrist.(my doctor said she would manage my meds until i found a dr.)And add to that the fact that I would be required to attend weekly therapy sessions to have continued med management. (I have had a long history with therapy of different sorts and have never found it to be efficacious.) I don't think I was as bothered by that,so much as I felt that I was being manipulated and forced into an action that put me under duress.
I talked about it with my husband and we both agreed that if I did not want the therapy I had two options: 1)go to therapy but do it as a shell/detached person so that I can minimize the amount of damage done to me while still allowing me meds, or 2)say "No" and deal with my depression and anxiety disorders without any medications.
I thought #1 wasn't a good idea, since my meds would be screwed up because I would be being treated as someone else. (In a manner of speaking).
So we discussed option #2. And what exactly that would involve.
We candidly looked at the likely outcome of me stopping all my meds with the exception of my gerd &BP meds which my doctor would continue to manage.
It isn't the best thing ever, but I have managed to survive my depression in the past without the benefit of medications and I am going to have to do it again.
It isn't something I take lightly. But I do feel it is the right decision for me.
In the two weeks since I saw the doctor I have begun weaning myself off my psych meds. I have an appointment with the doctor on Monday morning at which time I expect her to be unhappy with me. Oh,well. Can't have everything you want all the time.
I am glad at this point to have a plan and a supportive partner. I just wish he didn't have to go out of town. D'oh. Well, at least without the infliction of therapy I can stay on a more even keel.
Not sure that I won't stress eat but I am going to try to avoid using food as a med.
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That sounds very difficult, any way you look at it. I'm happy you have a supportive husband. I'm no doctor, but I have an incredibly intelligent friend with depression who swears that St. John's Wort has actually made a life altering, positive difference for him. On the other hand, I've read that many bottles of that don't have the actual concentration of it that they claim to include, so it's important to find the right vendor/manufacturer combination. Most importantly, I hope that there is a treatment option #3 that you haven't discovered yet that perhaps your insurance company, local health department, or mental health hotline could help you figure out how to find. It seems like such a shame for you to have found medication that is helping you only to have to abandon it. Good luck figuring out a positive outcome. We'll all be rooting for you!
19 Mrz 16 vom Mitglied: kpwcalories
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