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02 Oktober 2010

So I'm sitting at work, doing so overtime which I rarely do, I chose not to do it. And I'm thinking about how hard it was last night to go with my hubby and kids to McDonald's and just have coffe with nothing because I didn't even have stevia in my purse. I just kept thinking that when this is over and I lose all the weight then I'll be able to have McD's once in a while with no weight gain. It keeps going thru my mind though, how unfair it is that I have this metabolism that made me gain 100 lbs in the past 8 years without any real changes in my lifestyle or diet. So I'm just thinking, thinking and also thinking about me just losing 1/2 pound for the second time. I wonder is all this for just 1/2 pund a day? Then I think about other diets and say -come on Eli, 15 lbs in less than 2 weeks YEAH!- So I wonder how can I get through being at work for 6 hrs today when I realy want to be home and all I can do is think about why I have to go through such sacrafices to get to where I want to be. . .and then I remember I have my headphones in my gourges Kathy Van Zeland purse that my hubby bought me. I grab them, plug them in my iPhone and look up "what ever lola wants" in youtube.com and listen to that song and somehow I come across another one of my favorites songs "La Flaca" by Jarabe de Palo.
It has amazing rythm and I just start listening to all the songs and I have these CD's at home... I'm thinking, when did I stop listening to this? Is it when Carlos was born 8 yrs ago or when I first got married and let hubby put his music all the time to please him? And I noticed since Frida was born 3 yrs ago that little by little I start diging things up that I don't even remember I like or dream of. . .does that make any sence? I mean, I'm a totaly different person and just rely on food to feel good and confy, not music, dance, sports, horse riding (too fat) and lots of things that were my passion. . .so I started feeling better and better when listening to the songs and remembered back when I would dance and sing and perform to the furniture around the house, when I was in way better shape. I think being in better shape made me feel like I could do all that. . .and now I think I found a way to stop thinking about food and get thru the next 4 weeks of my long round of HCG, MUSIC! I need to get back in touch with my own self, noone will do it for me, no one realy knows what use to drive me like my self. . .It's finaly time to bring Baby (nickname) back from where ever she's hiding or where ever I left her. . .

Does anyone else feel like this? Like you've lost yourself on the way to where you are now???

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02 Oktober 2010

Gewicht:	Bisher verloren:	Still to go:	Diät befolgt:
109,2 kg	7,4 kg	45,7 kg	100%

Kommentar hinzufügen Verlust von 1,9 kg pro Woche

01 Oktober 2010

This is BULL CRAP!!! How can I only lose 4 ounces in one day when doing this 100% ???? This is ridiculus. I had half an orange for my fruit last night. Could it be that I do better with strawberries? Because other than that I just don't get it. I was 241.8 yesterday and this morning I go weight all happy thinking for sure I'll be at least 239 and ohhhhh nooooo, 4 freakin' ounces, AHHH!!!! Sorry ladies, just need to get my frustration out.

Gewicht:	Bisher verloren:	Still to go:	Diät befolgt:
109,5 kg	7,2 kg	46,0 kg	100%

(5 Kommentare) Verlust von 1,3 kg pro Woche

30 September 2010

Can't wait to be in the 230's, 220's, 210's. . .heck imagine when I see 199 on the scale!!! That would be amazing. Last time I weighed under 200 I was pregnant with my first child. He turned 8 in April, isn't that sad. I can't believe I let my self go this long.

Gewicht:	Bisher verloren:	Still to go:	Diät befolgt:
109,7 kg	7,0 kg	46,2 kg	100%

(2 Kommentare) Verlust von 5,1 kg pro Woche

29 September 2010

I forgot my HCG shot today, I was running out of the house to get to work on time. Would it be ok to take the shot around 2pm?

Gewicht:	Bisher verloren:	Still to go:	Diät befolgt:
110,4 kg	6,3 kg	46,9 kg	100%

(2 Kommentare) Verlust von 5,7 kg pro Woche

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